Why is God keeping me alone again for Christmas?

I've been single over 5 years and I've spent most of my holidays Christmas alone. I went back 2 times to visit my parents when I lives out of state. I recently stopped talking to both my parents, they are toxic and have not supported me. They discouraged me to move back to my home state, which I hever understood. I have little respect and love for both. I've been social and attended many events since I got back earlier this year. I still have no plans for Christmas!! Why is it like this almost every year of my life? I hate the Christmas and only like the decorations.

Why is God keeping me alone again for Christmas?
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