Its new year and I feel so low? Dont know why?

[Crimsyjo]

Had a fantastic 2024 overall. So much fun and excitement. Holiday to Greece. Lots of sexy connections, fun and adventure. I've come a long way in self awareness and confidence. But I also fell in love (with someone I talk to everyday still but can't have), lost some old connections or out grew them, messed up my car! Like 4 days ago. But already brought new one.

Last night I went a new club... hated it. Hard the lay out. The new year vibe was rubbish. I did talk to new people and I even did some pole dancing which I got told was really good (not my first time on the pole). Got groped by a gross man. Ended up leaving like 1am but kinda glad I didn't have to sleep in my car (if I'd got too drunk to drive). I got offered a gang bang but... as tempted as I am keep getting these offers... I just can't seem to want to sleep with new guys. And defo not random ones. I'm kinda moping cos really I just want the one guy I want. Or one guy total. Tho I do enjoy my casual guys. I'm looking forward to them coming back from holiday with family over Christmas.

I just don't know why I feel so meh right now...

[nawtee_me]

The highs have to level off at some point so you don’t get sensory overload…. When the holidays are over things will get back to normal and those guys will be happy too….

[Crimsyjo]

Yeah your right! It makes me long for a boyfriend tho when things go quiet. To have someone more available all year round!
Casuals are so much fun but can be fragile.

[nawtee_me]

Thanks for the MHO

[Maybe_Maybe_not]

I don't want to sound like a cheap analyst but you you keep dropping solid hints about the paradox you're in. Since weeks already, or more.

🪞

[Crimsyjo]

I know I know.

[Maybe_Maybe_not]

So, is this question answered now? 😉

[Crimsyjo]

Yes I'm low because despite the ups and downs of 2024 I'm entering 2025 in exactly the same point of wanting what I cannot have and cannot find and wuth the same choice to either be depressed with nothing or continue distracting myself with fun but temporary distractions...

[Maybe_Maybe_not]

I disagree Crimsy, you have more possibilities than the two options presented above, you don't have "nothing", I'm certain there are many things in your life for you to look at and appreciate, sure, that one thing you don't have may take a lot of mental space.

What makes you think you _cannot_ have _this one_ thing?

[chrissykerdock]

passing up the gangbang your young only once

[molonski2]

Probably because you passed up the New Year Gang Bang..

[CubaPirate]

I'm happy to be going on a long vacation to Fuerteventura tomorrow

[bornNerd]

I feel bad for you. Are you feeling okay now? In February @Crimsyjo

[Crimsyjo]

It comes and goes but yeah. I love my guys and fun and excitement. It makes me feel alive. But then... when they all quiet or busy... I still get lonely and miss that more consistent aspect of a relationship. But then like I also think in a relationship I'll miss the spontaneous adventure of my casuals. So I can't win! But I am currently embracing the quiet periods as time to catch up on study, rest and chores. Cos the fun always comes all at once. Like last weekend I had 4 hours sleep over 3 nights on top of working 8.5 hour shifts cos my fun guys were all about. But then... today... nothing !

[bornNerd]

Well I guess that's the pros and cons of casual relationships.

[Bklynbadboy12]

Awww hope you feel better