How can I let go of the guilt I have for talking with older guys?

[Anonymous]

Im just sad I self sabotaged... I ended my own childhood and probably most of my teen hood. I’ll make this short and not too detailed. But basically at 12 I dated a guy 6 years older it was long distance relationship. He got mad at me a lot for not sending nudes but I liked him and would even though I didn’t know how to please myself which Is why I never liked doing it and sending It , as well I was insecure since girls on pornhub would be different , and lastly he compared me to a celeb who had big boobs and etc when I was 12 barely starting puberty so. We were good usually just he was a bit cold but loving. He showed his love in humorous ways but I wanted it to be srs and romantic for once not playing around. I’d be drained from crying and crying cuz he made me feel so insecure. We broke up when I was 14 . He was the last guy I talked with untill. But now even... all I met just come at me for sexual reasons. Honestly I just wanted a friend Im done looking for one.. I’m just lonely I don’t come from a loving family and they never showed it the right way. I don’t know why cuz I’m quiet , try to be nice and Im not selfish but I just meet wrong people and I hate that I grew up so quick how since 12 I’ve planned my future to graduate earlier , do this n that earlier so we could’ve dated or oh I need to show him and her I’m adult enough. It jus I don't know sucks. I feel like a shit person for doin that stuff since 12

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I understand I most likely and need professional help like therapy wise. Just as a minor still that.. no they will tell my parents.

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Thanks for The advices Im 17 now and I don't know transitioning into like adult and past things I just I don't know I guess I got to overcome the past shit that happened. Well thanks 😃

[KnowledgeAndfun]

There is so so much I could tell you. I don't think I have heard enough details to really pinpoint things but. I do not mind one bit about being a friend. I don't mind listening at any time needed. I don't mind giving advice. I don't even mind if the advice isn't taken. I will do just as a friend is supposed to do and support the choice you make. Feel free to private message me or just talk to me here if that's your choice. The best advice or help I can say at this moment you are going to have to read it slowly think very long and hard on it and as with all things apply the kiss method to it. That's the keep it simple stupid method. It means don't make it complicated cause that makes it hard. Now. Here is the advice. Please at first remember that it is going to sound like I'm being hard on you but it is simply the truth the whole truth and nothing but the truth. You can not will not and have never ever in your life so far and forever more. make anyone happy. No one has is or will ever make you or anyone else happy. Only you can do that for you but never to or for anyone else. You can add to their happiness or level of happiness but you will never make anyone but you happy. Just think long and hard on that. When it sinks In and once you finally live while all of that becomes the natural and only way you see think and believe that like you did before that became your normal natural way of thinking and acting it's at that point you can add happiness to others In more efficient and more effective ways plus you will have a more pleasant disposition about yourself. As for your childhood. Take something from my day. I don't want to grow up Im a toys are us kid. I still have childlike fun imaginations creativity and all kinds of things. Just always be who you really are without worry of what anyone thinks of you and you will be any age you wish

[Shamalien]

Start your new life today. Imagine if you were just born right now, at 17, what kind of life do you want?

[Waldoe]

Children are just that... Children. As a child you made bad decisions, that is Very Normal, the internet is sometimes a bad place for children to play, it can get out of control fast... you are NOT responsible for the silly and foolish things that you did as a child. The Men that approached you "Thought" you were older, they did not know you were a child...
Give yourself a Break... you are older now and you Learned a Lot from your mistakes... All children make Mistakes. And that is OK, as long as you learn.
You get to start over, you are an adult now, and you know many things that other girls your age do not know...
This is YOUR LIFE... live it and continue to learn as you go, we all do

[Wise4myage]

You need to focus on forgiving yourself and yes, therapy would be a good idea. Also, don’t give up trying to make new friends.

[Dinosaursandanime65]

Sounds like you need a Silent G. But unfortunately, our population has sort of declined like credit cards in memes.

[lycanthrope3]

start by forgiving yourself, then take one step at a time along your new life

[ItsMeItsMe1989]

daddy issues, ga-lore

[disgustingweebtrash]

It is what it is