1. Height. I'm an adult male, but only ended up 181 cm. I loathe it with a passion, but said I'm complain about it less in 2022. Obviously though, among ALL things about myself, that is the big one I'd change. I want to be tall; at least 6'5"/195 cm and not the same height as like, most women I've dated. Being smol sucks! If NOTHING else could change about me, I'd want to be a fully grown man and not the size of a tall-ish child!
2. Body. Having hypothyroidism makes it near impossible for me to lose weight. And I gain it effortlessly as I only live off of sandwiches and water (and other cheap foods). I should NOT weigh as much as I do based on my simple diet! It's so unfair.
3. Penis. My penis, like my height, is inadequate in size, yet common. I'd add an inch to both length and girth, putting me at 7.5 x 6.5, which I think few women would complain about. At my current size, I can't even do penetration, which is how I got to be "so good" at oral... And I don't like doing oral!
4. Face. I'm ugly and wish to be less ugly. In society, the minimum to be "good looking" is a 7. I'd be fine being a 7 in looks. An 8 seems like it requires too much maintenance, but I think the "natural beauty" people who look good without makeup or gyms, are 7s.
5. Skin. I'd change my complexion, as well. I could be dark-skinned Caucasian or light-skinned mixed. But I'm so sick of the race drama going on right now. I don't "identify" with any race, nor do I want to. I'd rather be mixed with everything, no natural Earth race, or something no one can figure out (like Native American/Black, or Samoan).
6. Ego. *WOMEN* claim I need to be more positive and confident, and less pessimistic on myself. Eh. I am unsure, but maybe they're right. So I'll add that on as a last-minute addition, as well.
I think that I'm going to stay exactly the way that I am I don't really want to change anything I'm satisfied with who I am on the inside I'm very satisfied with the person on the outside and when you change one thing then other things change with it too so I'm happy just the way I am
I'd change my tendency to hold onto everything. It's really not a good trait and only ends up causing more pain in the long run. I'd love to be a person that let's go of things easily. Besides that, I'd change my ability to gain weight so freakin fast.
Your depression might not be that you just are sad like there is something wrong without reason. There are often things and reasons behind the way things are and the way we feel, at least generally. You can analyse those problems, and solve them.
I'm sort of against meds because they artificially affect the behaviour of the brain, sort of like a joy ride. Yes you can enjoy things but if used as a distraction without solving the root problem it might never go away. The brain is often much smarter than we give it credit for. Root causes and fundamental problems.
Therapy is sort of odd too, yes you can take help but it's sort of like math. If you don't understand how to solve problems and aren't familiar with them, you might deal with one issue until another one comes up, in a way it's all about problem solving.
I see. Well I used to be against the meds. Until one day I found I was in bed for 14 hours straight and still felt unbelievably tired and suicidal. I was gaining crazy weight and just feeling unbelievably overwhelmed and consumed with grief. Initially my anxiety was so high that I couldn't cope with the meds my thoughts were just so weird. All the negative thoughts would just stop it was weird. I realise that the negative thoughts are probably like a ocd compulsion. Anyways I'm in a much better place I'm not fixed but I accept its a process. And I'm making progress.
I would want to return to my early 20’s build and health. 6’5”. 225 lbs. Had gorilla strength. My mind was so clear then. No anxiety or stress. I achieved anything I put my too. My SO has broken me.
