Is this healthy?

[Koneko911]

I believe I mentioned it on gag last month when I took a few days away that my best friend committed suicide. And I haven't really been able to deal with it. I literally went back to work the day after and had to pretend everything is fine... but I'm not able to focus and deal. I've been dealing with that along with relationship issues... and I'm seriously worried I'm gonna have a mental breakdown again... u guys probably saw the one I had like a week or so ago... but I'm not sure what I need to do to fix this. I know my job isn't helping at all. And I don't really have a support I can lean on right now... so what do I do...

[jennifer_bloom]

My Pinterest account is linked to my profile, I collect videos of animals to meditate on and laugh over to boost my mood or my immunity to sickness. You could collect your own animal videos or follow somebody who has already collected animal videos. I sometimes spend two hours a day watching animal videos online because it gives me the positive social bliss I don’t always get from my parents. Reddit and YouTube also have animal videos you can watch and subscribe to.

[QuietVerbena]

U need therapy. Having a friend commit suicide is horrible.

[boggboss]

Do u live in a place where u can get leave from work via a doctor from mental health or stress then potentially start therapy?

[MementoMori777]

Not much you can do besides let time do its job, all you can do is try distracting your mind with things that are positive

[bowenw]

I suggest seeing a therapist/grief counselor to help you through this difficult time.

[Bklynbadboy12]

You might need to talk to a professional