Is it strange if I prefer being bullied over being ignored?

[Anonymous]

Honestly, negative attention is better than no attention. When I walk on the street and nobody cares about me whether I live or die and nobody notices me, it feels devastating. I'd rather get bullied, because at least I get some attention, even if the attention is negative.

Since I got banned from TikTok a few months ago where my main audience was along with my content, I lost all the attention I was getting and I've no courage to start from scratch.

I cannot live without being noticed in one way or another. Worst of all a few days ago I was shadowbanned from Instagram and Threads, where I also had some interactions. I've problems making friends offline, because every friendship I had so far never lasted for long.

A chain reaction of bad things happening this year. But lacking external validation both online and offline, can kill you.

[provokeesmokee]

You need some therapy, kid.

It is human to seek validation and attwntion. It is not healthy that you'd accept abuse and hate just to feel aeen.

That requires help beyond what your friends or social media can provide. You need a professional to help you untabgle all of this.

[jennifer_bloom]

You should never start a fight unless you know where the enemy is hiding and how many friends they have. This might be a warning or I might be joking.

[Asker]

You mean that I start fights intentionally? Yeah sometimes I do that for the sake of attention, if I believe I "own" the other person.