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What is life really like when you see yourself as average looking or plain?

As someone with 28 years of life experience I would say throughout my whole life I’m just an average looking Plain Jane. Yep you heard that right. In school I was never hit on, flirted with, mostly ignored & no one showed interest in me. My best friend however is a pretty girl she has some boys in our class crushing on her but she mostly ignored them. As for me I would be extremely uncomfortable if they hit on me because I have this Asperger’s condition which meant It will stress me out if that were to happen to me. When I was a kid I was extremely skinny and I was bullied for being small which unfortunately caused me to hate my body size. I was called “Miss Skeleton”, “Bony”, etc. I started to force fed myself at the age of 7, I became a healthy weight at 12 but I still wasn’t pleased so I always overeat and I hated having a high metabolism which made it almost impossible unless I engaged in force feeding but then at age 14 I stopped force feeding and focused on overeating instead. Fast forward to 18 I decided to workout for the very first time and still continue to eat even more calories. In the end I didn’t keep track of my weight until 2 years later which was at age 20. I gained a ton of weight again until I went from 50kg to 61kg but strangely I wasn’t overweight because what I did was gaining muscles. I’m much happier with how I looked and stopped overeating but it took a while. Then as I have a new body shape I did get hit on once for the very first time but I rejected him because I sensed bad vibes from him still in the end men wouldn’t pay attention to me and it’s all good. I know I will never look as beautiful as Dilraba but that’s totally fine. Beauty isn’t everything according to my best friend whom I still keep in contact with. She’s not only pretty she is smart too but unfortunately not all pretty girls are smart hence the term ‘bimbo’. People say good looking people tend to be dumb but I doubt all are dumb.

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I’m a Chinese lady living in Asia and the beauty standards are adopted from Seoul, China and even Japan! I refuse to participate in beauty standards and beauty routines because why should I give my money to the beauty industries whom profits off insecurities.
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I was told by an ex friend of mine that I would be much prettier if I were to wear makeup, shave and wear contacts but I couldn’t bother to do those. I don’t envy attractive people in general I understand celebrities have to look a certain
What is life really like when you see yourself as average looking or plain?
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