I'm not happy unless I'm drunk or high.

[heyitsdan]

Why is it I need to drink or get high to feel like myself ? I don't do it that often to where I'm addicted or anything. I can function without them but, I just feel lonely, sad and like I'm trapped in a box. Then when I have a few drinks or take some pills (I don't smoke weed its to week of a high) I feel amazing I'm happy, I feel like I can be myself and the best thing I feel free and can do anything.

[cavmanier]

It's likely you are depressed. Substances like those tend to make us happy although it's unsustainable.

[heyitsdan]

Yeah your telling me... drugs are expensive

[cavmanier]

Lol that too, but I meant we get addicted to the high, obviously, and our bodies will build up a tolerance to the glee. Learning to feel content with happy moments is the way to go, IMO, especially if you develop some intelligence over your emotions.

[Anonymous]

You suffer from depression and seek substances to remove you from it.

[heyitsdan]

Perhaps, its never really been brought up while I go to doctors.

[Opinion Owner]

It's perfectly understandable to be. My cousin is the nicest guy ever but struggles deep down with depression and you'd never know it. He's the life of the party and always always at bars. When his phone dies and you can't find him, just hop around to the neighboorhood bars and he'll be at one. He's not an alcoholic but the only way he knows how to relax and have fun, is with alcohol. Sad part is that the problems are always amplified the next day as alcohol is merely a depressant itself.

[heyitsdan]

Yeah your probably right, but I have to much pride to go to doctors and go hey I think I'm depressed blah blah and get help.

[Opinion Owner]

So does he. He won't take meds and won't go to a doctor for it. I admire his fierce pride and ability to move forward like nothing bothers him. I just worry about it all catching up with him some day and have him just snap.

[heyitsdan]

Yeah, I can say iv wanted to die for the past few years. I have only one way id like to go out and its not possible atm so.. I'm still here lol..

[Opinion Owner]

It's not your time then man. I am not gonna feed you all that happy crap because it doesn't work for people. My cousin almost died in a car accident, was put in jail facing a long sentence for something he didn't do and he's still here. I feel horrible for him since nothing ever works out. He can't keep girlfriends, can't keep jobs, and drinks all his problems away to be happy. But, he's beaten some horrible things and I can't help but feel like one thing good is coming to make it all better.

[heyitsdan]

I can't think of anything to say to your response, I'm a little high. But I really appreciate you talking to me though and makes me feel a little better, just talking to someone.

[Opinion Owner]

No worries man, best of luck with this!

[vittles]

because drugs and alcohol are fun

[heyitsdan]

They are fun, but their the only thing that makes me happy.

[vittles]

what kinda pills?

[heyitsdan]

Oxy 10mg I generally top out at 30mg in one sitting.

[Anonymous]

Too bad. You need to have a good social life.

[Anonymous]

What a shame.

[heyitsdan]

It is a shame