I hate when my boyfriend smokes weed?

Anonymous
Not that I have anything against weed or people who smoke it, I even do it myself occasionally. (But rarely) Anyways my boyfriend smokes like everyday and I never could understand why it bothered me so bad. Finally I realized that I wasn't actually getting upset about him smoking weed... what makes me upset is not knowing who he's smoking with and the time I lose with him because of it... My boyfriend and I talk on the phone ALL DAY EVERYDAY like we fall asleep otp and wake up otp etc. I even talk to him otp at school. That's another thing we can't talk as much because school started back... to get to the point I'm used to talking to him pretty much 24/7 even when he's in the car with his mom etc. But the one time were not on the phone is when he goes to smoke... which he does this like EVERYDAY !!! His cousin and his girlfriend pick him up like everyday and they all go smoke. It's always later at night and there always gone for hours. This is starting to get really annoying because it's usually around the time when I'm just about to lay down for school but I like talking to my boyfriend during this time... this gets in the way of that. When he gets back home I'm usually sleep so we don't even get to fall asleep otp. It's so annoying how he won't even tell me he's about to go smoke until the last minute. We will just be having a good conversation then suddenly someone will call him or whatever and he will say he's about to go smoke etc. I hate that this bothers me so much. It really started bothering me after he smoked with this girl I didn't care for multiple times after I told him not to and he also smoked with two random girls with his cousin. I guess what bothers me the most is the fear of him being around or meeting new girls while he smokes. I have a lot of trust in my boyfriend but I have trust issues so there's always a part of me that worries and thinks of the worst. How can I get over this? Am I over exasperating?
I hate when my boyfriend smokes weed?
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