I enjoy sleeping with a guy so much older than me?

I didn't know what question title to use...
I am 21 and he is 38. Handsome and powerful. Thats what i always liked about him. His power and leading position in every business. He is divorced and has 2 daughters. I want a family and kids. I know he is not ok for me but i cannot distance myself. I see him as God although he never talks to me about anything important. He talks to some politicians from Europe but never gives me details. Like he says " it wouldn't interest you anyway" he treats me good ( he treats other people like shit) but he is nice to me. But i dont know what to do. I tried to leave a few times but always threw myself at his feet and told him i was stupid and begged take me back. I see him as God. Smart, powerful, handsome. What to do? Plus... he only visits me at night. In the morning or early afternoon he leaves.
I enjoy sleeping with a guy so much older than me?
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