I have been with my BPD fiance for a few years and I am not exactly sure if I am in a relationship anymore. She ends the relationship about 3 of 4 times a week and blocks me, I don't pay attention to it and just talk to her through another means an hour later and everything is fine. This time is different because it has been a week and she is still raging at me every day and saying it is over.
I have been in a devaluation stage for the last month; there is nothing that I could do right like her saying that she didn't have enough money for food, I sent food and had it delivered, but it was not what she wanted and threw everything away. She was sick and doesn't have insurance, I sent money to pay for the tests. She used the money to help her mom since both are out of work because of COVID-19. I sent again, and she did the same thing and I said I wasn't going to pay a third time. She then said that I don't care about her health and how terrible of a person I am. She then lost her cell phone, I told her that I would help her get a 2nd hand phone since this is the 5th one this year, now I am the man who doesn't treat her like others treat their girlfriends.
Her friend contacted me asking if I talked to her since she hasn't heard from her in several days, said that she was raging at her for no reason. I said that I have been trying to get her therapy for a while because I have been experiencing the same thing. My fiance then said that I was cheating on her with her friend, and ended the relationship. It has now been a week and she is still raging at me and saying we are over which is different. I tried to explain with logic that I live 2000 miles away from her friend and the country doesn't allow foreigners to enter because of COVID, therefore it is impossible to cheat. She keeps saying I cheated every day which frankly, I wish that I did so everything made sense.
Can anyone share their BPD experience and what you did or would do in this case?
I have been in a devaluation stage for the last month; there is nothing that I could do right like her saying that she didn't have enough money for food, I sent food and had it delivered, but it was not what she wanted and threw everything away. She was sick and doesn't have insurance, I sent money to pay for the tests. She used the money to help her mom since both are out of work because of COVID-19. I sent again, and she did the same thing and I said I wasn't going to pay a third time. She then said that I don't care about her health and how terrible of a person I am. She then lost her cell phone, I told her that I would help her get a 2nd hand phone since this is the 5th one this year, now I am the man who doesn't treat her like others treat their girlfriends.
Her friend contacted me asking if I talked to her since she hasn't heard from her in several days, said that she was raging at her for no reason. I said that I have been trying to get her therapy for a while because I have been experiencing the same thing. My fiance then said that I was cheating on her with her friend, and ended the relationship. It has now been a week and she is still raging at me and saying we are over which is different. I tried to explain with logic that I live 2000 miles away from her friend and the country doesn't allow foreigners to enter because of COVID, therefore it is impossible to cheat. She keeps saying I cheated every day which frankly, I wish that I did so everything made sense.
Can anyone share their BPD experience and what you did or would do in this case?
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