This is something that I've pondered on for years. I've never really had a great history with "the game of love", in fact, I don't have much of a history at all. For as long as I can remember, I've never really been good with women. I was either too shy/nervous to approach them or I just didn't know what to say. As I continued to get older, that feeling of nervousness has gone away mostly, but now I just feel like I either don't have the motivation, Don't know what to say, or just don't believe love is for me.
I spend pretty much all of my time alone and I don't really have many friends. A lot of people also probably consider me very unapproachable and boring because I don't seem to be into things that a lot of people are into, or I just come off as cold and uncommunicative. I can't deny any of this because it's mostly true. I'd be the first one to tell you all about my flaws. I can definitely be a jerk, careless, lazy, and frankly, just not all that smart lol... And I can think of plenty of other things wrong with me.
It's funny because I used to blame people outside of myself for how I feel about love right now, but now I understand that it's probably just me, and it's been me for years... Maybe my mindset is just poor, maybe I'm meant to be alone, I don't know. I'm not even sure if I really want to find love honestly. I'm definitely attracted to women but I honestly think the majority are repulsed by me for whatever reason.
I spend pretty much all of my time alone and I don't really have many friends. A lot of people also probably consider me very unapproachable and boring because I don't seem to be into things that a lot of people are into, or I just come off as cold and uncommunicative. I can't deny any of this because it's mostly true. I'd be the first one to tell you all about my flaws. I can definitely be a jerk, careless, lazy, and frankly, just not all that smart lol... And I can think of plenty of other things wrong with me.
It's funny because I used to blame people outside of myself for how I feel about love right now, but now I understand that it's probably just me, and it's been me for years... Maybe my mindset is just poor, maybe I'm meant to be alone, I don't know. I'm not even sure if I really want to find love honestly. I'm definitely attracted to women but I honestly think the majority are repulsed by me for whatever reason.
