I was everything I wouldn’t like in a person - specifically, I was extremely selfish, cold and just not a nice person.
My ex fiancé fell for me when I thought there was nothing good enough to fall in love with me, I didn’t even consider relationships, I thought I would never fit in one and it would be better of me to just take care of my career and my family, because I didn’t think I was good enough to be loved the way I dreamed of.
He used to see little good things in me and appreciate them.
Gradually, when I saw he loved me even at my worst, even at my most unlovable mode, it melt my heart and I unpacked my real personality, when I fell for him I could never imagine I could be so patient, understanding, supportive and selfless. It made me see myself from a different light and I fell for him even harder because he used to bring out the sweetest qualities in me.
However, it’s a double-edged sword I guess, because at some point he saw it as a weakness and used to tell me he wanted me to be as “strong” as I was before.
I was happier when I wasn’t “strong” though. Cause I felt like I was real me without any masks or cover ups.