Why can’t I make any real friends/relationships?

I fall in love with idols, celebrities, people i don’t even know personally. And i can’t get close to them even in live streams. I get so upset because i feel close to them because of videos but i cannot ever get close to them like normal relationships can. But at the same time i cannot make real life relationships because it’s too hard (cuz I’m introverted and autistic) and everyone i meet is for some reason always a POS and/or ghosts me. Especially online!! What’s wrong with the world? Am i cursed or something?
Why can’t I make any real friends/relationships?
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