Polls: Relationships

I know most people have a past but I'm an inexperienced guy. I've never sexted, had sex, or had a girlfriend before her. She's had one boyfriend before me and they sexted during their short relationship. She told me they never went to the point where they had sex and that she's still a virgin. I don't know why but it bothers me at the thought of her ex still having her nudes and shit like that and the fact she did something like that with him..
She told me she cut of all communication with him the moment we started talking. Am I overreacting and being dumb? Should I just let this go?

I am a 32 year old NON-RELIGIOUS black man man who is single, and who has been ignored like I don't even exist for most of my life. As a child, I was badly abused by my mother and her boyfriends (Physical, mental, and emotional), and bullied by my peers (then go home to the same thing, just 300x worse) and as a result, my self esteem is shot, never to be repaired.

Recently, not even a day ago, I came to the conclusion that my older brother has been making disparaging remarks about me, and as a result, his kids are calling me "homeless", "Stupid", and just outright disrespecting me. My co-workers recently found out I've never had a sexual relationship, by accident, and now all they do is laugh, point, and back away as if i'm some kind of leper. Or call me a loser.

I feel as if my entire family is just tolerating me until i go away, and they can get back to their lives. This is really painful, and hard to talk about.

I have desperately tried dating, but it is of no use, as I've been told that I look "pedophile creepy", or accused of stalking. The crushes i have had were always one sided, and i know of no one who felt the same about me. I have no experience with relationships or women, and at this point, I've become a hermit and have stopped trying at all.

All i do is go to work, and come home to loneliness. Waking up reminds me of the fact that everyone I know has a family or a significant other, and that i'm like a third wheel, stuck on the outside looking in.

For the past two weeks, I have been ruminating whether to commit suicide, as I constantly feel that i am not wanted here, that I have no purpose in this world. (I don't, I was just an accident). I am undergoing therapy, but i feel this isn't solving anything. It changes nothing. So In closing, I will say that I have never experienced love. My hopes and dreams are shattered, I feel out of place, and the only way is to end this suffering. All I understand, is that i'm not wanted in this world.

Im just wondering if I should wish her a happy birthday. We were great for about a year but the relationship wasn't really going anywhere and we both didn't see it going anywhere seriously in the future. However we do both still have feelings for eachother, I know this because I have received a few texts from her telling me that she misses me (which I've ignored). Although she was the one that ended it about a month ago should I break no contact just to wish her a happy birthday? We were both really close and such great friends and I know that if it were the other way round I'd be so annoyed if she didn't wish me a happy birthday. We both know that we will see each other as we go to the same college. Should I keep no contact or be the guy to text her I know it'll happen sooner or later either on her side or mine.
sorry for this long winded question would just like to know everyones thoughts :D thanks

After many years online I have come to believe there are no good ones left. But I hope to be proven wrong. I wish to find one. but first i feel I have to describe exactly what my view of a good woman is.

A GOOD WOMAN IS NOT!:
1. materialistic.
2. Hard to get a hold of.
3. a woman that runs the streets.
4. a woman that talks to or flirts with other men.
5. a woman who puts her friends ahead of her partner.
6. a woman who enters into a relationship knowing she does not have time for one.
7. a woman who uses sex as a bargaining tool.
8. a woman who withholds sex as a punishment.
9. a woman who will leave a man when he is down.
10. a woman who bails at the first disagreement instead of working it out together.

A GOOD WOMAN IS:

A. a woman who puts her partner first in life.
B. a woman behaves in public in a way that builds trust.
C. a woman who when alone with her partner does things that would make a sailor blush.
D. a woman who is faithful.
E. a woman who does not put herself in situations where she can be unfaithful.
F. a woman who makes it a point to have plenty of time for her man.
G. a woman that believes love is enough.

I dont think that is too much to ask for, and all I ask for I am willing to give in return.
I have a lot of love in my heart to give to the right woman.

Age is not a factor.
Race is not a factor though I do prefer Hispanic, white, Asian or biracial.

Can you be the one to prove to me good women still exist?

Tharciane Silva - Trans female

You always see it in movies, tv shows or read it in books. Two people (mostly male and female) are instantly attracted to each other in the same way. However that seems to be more of a fantasy that people wish were true. In real life, it's mostly the man who is attracted to the woman at first because of her looks and then later on perhaps the woman will become "attracted" to him but not in the same way he is attracted to her because the man is attracted to her physical beauty at first while the woman is mostly drawn to him for his non physical attributes.