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The story is quite big but I'll try my best to sum it up in just a few lines. Hope you guys can understand.
So there's this woman (let's name her Lilly) who is actually my next door neighbor. She's actually 7 years older than me, lol and she also got a brother who's the same age as me. So talking about Lilly. She's a beautiful woman with a killer smile and a fantastic personality. But like everyone else, she also got her own demons and fair share of past traumas. Even though she struggles with anxiety, adhd and other issues, she's the most resilient and determined woman I've ever seen. A true fighter! She's ambitious, driven and passionate about her work and... Yea... I could actually go on and on but... let's just get to the story.
So around this time last year, we started talking through insta. I mean... I always saw as a sister only tbh. So whenever I'd find some funny reels, I'd send it to her along with my own sister who is actually 10 years older than and also a really good friend of Lilly. Time passed by... sending reels and good night messages kinda became a tradition between us. We bonded really quickly and like she'd say... We vibed! I told myself that I think I got a best friend with whom I can share anything. And she also shared some of her biggest secrets with me too. I was slowly falling for her without even realizing that myself cos in my head I've always limited our relationship to just "friends". Long story short, we both fell in love with each other. We did go through an on and off phase in between cos we didn't want anyone to know about us especially our family members cos we come from different religious and cultural backgrounds plus, the age gap. I know it's 21st century and we should have an open mind and all but we r just afraid of losing our loved ones. So we mutually decided to end it cos it was hurting both of us and now after she's gone, there's not a single day I don't miss her and cry. And it's slowly killing me from inside. I can't...

This is what I am seeking in a woman:

• Ideally between the ages of 18 and 27 (although she can be slightly older if most or all other criteria match. 18 is the lowest because, of course, going any lower runs many risks legally and ethically, not because I don't want to per say)
• A REAL woman, not a transgender
• Ultimately desires marriage and a family (marriage doesn't have to occur immediately of course)
• Of course, desires to fall in love and have a romantic bond (not aromantic)
• Willing and able to bond via sex (not asexual)
• We are each other's first loves (she has no previous romantic bonds with a guy/never been in love... I am not talking strictly about virginity here)
• 5+/10 rank in physical attractiveness (a beautiful woman is a bonus, but not at all a deal breaker. She can be average in attractiveness... also I know this is subjective, but I am being general)
• Not black (I just never really was attracted to black women)
• Doesn't do drugs and is not an alcoholic

Some very desirable bonuses but NOT hardline deal breakers:

• She is a Christian
• She is white
• Has a good family background

About ME:

• I am 27, turning 28 in a few months
• I have never had a real girlfriend
• I have a decently good-paying job as a frontend software developer
• I currently live at home, but seeking independence when I can
• I am 5'6" in height
• I am average looking at best
• I own a decent car and a Class A RV
• I am very affectionate with women if given an opportunity
• I want to get married and have a family one day
• I am monogamous

Well, what do you think?

I was truly shocked and disgusted by how the Dodger team has formatted their big "K" letters. Six Ks, one reverse K only to get three more Ks to lead the line. I commented on them saying hey what the heck you just lost my respect, then I unfollowed them and exposed them for the true racists they are (though I did not directly call them a racist).

I was a longtime Dodger "fan" due to family background and peer pressure. They've literally lost my respect AND my support. I am renouncing this garbage sports team known as the Dodgers. Actually I don't even think there are any good sports teams out there today.

This one dude considers himself "AF" (that stands for America First) and he is part of a "College Republican" club that he wrote in his bio. He saw my story but I don't see a reason why he unfollowed me?

We've established a friendship in court (yes, for real), but only right after he sat next to and introduced himself to my mom. He's 24 years old, and I'm 22, so we are close in age. He has a military background and he is all about God and America. He seems to be really conservative. Me personally, I'm more libertarian (not liberal, because there is a difference between the two... I'll explain below).

Libertarian- an advocate or supporter of a political philosophy that advocates only minimal state intervention in the free market and the private lives of citizens.
Liberal- a supporter of policies that are socially progressive and promote social welfare.
Conservative- a person favoring free enterprise, private ownership, and socially traditional ideas.

If anything I lean closer to "conservative" than "liberal". Being religious myself pushes me personally even more to the right.

Anyway back to the topic, we went to the gym for some of the first few weeks since we have started our friendship. Sometimes when he is late to the gym or he doesn't even arrive at all, he'll say sorry he's f*cked up, he's drunk, etc. I don't drink, but he does.

Three weeks ago on Sunday, he promised he would text me Tuesday to see if I have recovered. But he didn't text me on Tuesday. I texted him on Thursday asking him "how you doin?", I miss you bud, when you free to meet up?


After talks with my therapist and my case manager, I have decided to send him even more texts. I said, "Hey man, wanna come work out?" Instantly, he texted me saying hey man just got my phone back online over the bills. I told him basically that it sucks and asked him again when he's free to meet up. He said to let him deal with "(his) crap first" and he would see me "next week". He literally sent me subsequent texts discussing his bills and he said he would discuss "some family BS" in person.

The last text I received from him was June 7th. Today is June 20th and I still have yet to see this guy.