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I've been having a crush on my online friend for 2 months and I hate the feeling of it. It has made me insecure, unsettled and has occupied a lot of my time. I don't think he likes me back although he compliments me a lot. I want to confess my feelings to end this crush. But here are 3 things I am worrying about:
1. What if there's a chance that he will grow to like me if I keep talking to him, but I might ruin the chance by confessing too early.
2. What if he think I am weird to have a crush on him, because having a crush on someone online is stupid. I want to look cool and remain a good impression for him.
3. What if he starts to avoid me.

And I really want to know, if there's a chance that he may grow to like me as long as I keep talking to him, or if he doesn't like me back now, he never will?

My ex and I had a messy fight a few weeks ago and he hasn't been the same since. Before I knew I made him happy, he has told me several times that he has never loved someone as much as he loves me. But he told me something changed after that fight. It has been on off for just under three weeks until a few days ago when he told me to move out. He told me he needs space and maybe we can try again when he's back. He's going to Spain next week and will be gone for two weeks. I made the mistake of not giving him space because I wanted to talk, I hadn't had a chance to explain how I felt. I showed up and he was so happy to see me. He showed me how he's been Journaling about me, how he went down to a print shop to print a picture of me from the beginning of our relationship when things were good to keep with him at all times, all the things he said and did pointed towards him missing me, wanting to get back together and fix things. I moved my things back in. Then, out of the blue, he feels depressed. He said it was too soon, then he said he doesn't want this at all. He said he's just been trying to convince himself that we can go back to normal even though he knows we can't. This confused me because in the last two weeks he had told me that he's so proud of being seen with me, that he wants to move overseas with me, that I'm the only person who understands him, he has been telling me that he loves me a lot more than usual. Now I don't know what's true, the person he is when he's happy is so different from the person he is when he's resentful. I begged and pleaded, it wasn't a good look and I don't know if I ruined my chances. I need a second opinion please, do you think he'll come back? Do you think he still loves me? If he doesn't, why has he said all these things?

I've often heard the saying ''Why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free'' but how true is that?

If the saying is true, this has me confused. My parents had sex (right on the 2nd month) in their relationship and so did a couple other relatives but they still got married. If they didn't wait till marriage, how did the guy still married them? In comparing to now, it's like having sex even with a boyfriend ruins everything. He can be dating her for many years and wasting her years into nothing.