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In relationships, I attach importance to character harmony and the similarity of our lifestyles rather than physical characteristics.
There are no men around me who suit me in this regard. For this reason, I search for men I don't know on social media etc., find out that I am compatible with them and become platonic. And I can't reach anyone, I'm also a shy person.
What should I do

When I was 13 I began get crush on my best friend and when he found out he stopped being my friend and acted like I didn’t exist.

when I was in highscool age 17 I had another crush and I talked to him few times but he didn’t like me back so I never had romantic prom dream come true.

Age 18 - I did meet one guy that liked me back at job but he was never a true boyfriend, that met family , took pics with me, holidays with me, nothing , we began date 2x a month age 23-25 and broke up. So I don't know if he counts as a boyfriend. Only til I was 25 the dates were weekly on our day off.

however from age 18-21 men never showed interest in me never.
I did get married at that time but it was a nonexistent relationship and he use me for papers only.

age 22 - I was sick 72 lbs. I couldn’t eat as I chocked on all food I tried to swallow& had severe anxiety. My life that time was be in bed all day sick with no cure.

now I’m 26 in 2 wks- no boyfriend

since June age 25 - I began trying to talk to my crush at job but it was hard as he worked far and quit. So we never met. Then since septmeber daily men show interest in me but no one talks to me or gets to know me or gives me ride home from job to bond nothing.
also septmeber a new crush showed up that looks like old crush his twin and he likes me so I began like him back.
but it’s end October and we still haven’t talked to each other yet. Last week e just stared at each other & both shy.

he works far like old crush did but he comes to look for me during breaks. I hope this wk we finally talk.