i feel kind of unlovable since (got played badly once for sex, left me bad) and i usually don’t feel respected by men.
i either get comments on my body or just sexual things i feel disgusted at.
all my other friends are in respectful relationships and i kinda feel like a virgin whore.
i’ve only kissed one guy in my life (i was nearly blackout drunk so i don’t even know if that counts)
sometimes i don’t even get guys attention at all and i feel unattractive most days, and other days i feel too attractive.
i know i’m an awkward person, i’m very shy, i live in a country were i don’t totally dominate the language (i still have an accent and i stumble on words) i have social anxiety even though i can kind of put on a character and i have like 3 friends.
i feel very unhappy with my romantic life since i’ve never had a boyfriend before and i feel like no one cares about my personality, or think it’s boring and that i don’t matter in that way.
what do i do?