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I am 29 and never had a real girlfriend. I am extremely heartbroken because all my life I have always wanted a girlfriend. I have always wanted a woman whom I can be affectionate and intimate with.

As I watch my peers get married, I just feel very late. Me and a woman can never say we knew each other when we were young. There is so much missed time. I am grown now and approaching my 30s. It just doesn't feel the same.

Meanwhile, I feel like I would be giving my heart to a woman who has loved someone when she was young and got to experience her youth with someone else. Something that I can never say we get to experience. On top of that, I have to deal with the fact she has loved other boys and men before me and made love to them before. I will be some subsequent lover that if she ever lost me, it wouldn't be anything new to her and there is no sweat off her back. It just doesn't seem fair at all.

I am starting to get too old for much younger women. I am starting to become unattractive to 18, 19, and early 20s women due to my age. I feel I am left with women that have too much baggage, and before long, I will be lucky to even find a woman that has never been divorced or has kids from a previous marriage.