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So, I'm quite sensitive when it comes to touch & my boyfriend of more than 2 years is more on the other end of the spectrum. When he's sober, we arrange this well & are both happy, except for the occasional reminder for him to not break my neck when bear hugging me.

I want to clarify, he is a very kind soul, just clumsy, so it's always good intentions from him! But sometimes he accidently hurts me, which annoys me if it's too frequent & that's case when he's drunk. The more drunk/drugged, the worse it gets, as you simply loose control over your body. He tries super hard to give me my space & be veeery careful touching me then, but it's just not working. I'm kind of conditioned at this point that when he comes close to me drunk, he'll likely step on my foot/squeeze me too hard/poke his nose in my eye/get his fingers stuck in my hair, so I tense up as soon as he comes near me in that state. The worst part is that he's especially vulnerable & affectionate when drunk, but I just have to defend my space & tell him off & he can tell I'm not fond of him, which hurts him a lot.

I tried to avoid his drunk/drugged persona (he knows all of this, we communicate about it), but I also don't wanna miss all fun evenings with our friends. Moreover, it's a part of him (which he does not want to give up in this part of his life) and so I sometimes want to be with him in that state too. But it often ends in him being hurt & in a bad mood the next day, trying to recover from the rejections of the previous night and then he's the one needing his space, so I can't hug or kiss him to show him affection then, or to say sorry.

I know the most obvious solution is for me to avoid him in that state. But I wonder if anyone else made such experiences & whether you think this makes us a bad match/myself kind of a bad girlfriend, at least for him, that I can't deal with this? It hurts me a lot to hurt him and I hate myself in those moments for being so mean, I just don't know another way.

Love to play with my friends and my brother in law but more and more seems like every match or overly other has someone using aim bot, knowing just where you are as well hide, getting the drop on someone just to instantly be killed...

Watching them cheat report it and nothing happenes.

Would so love to just play with other consoles or switches but there is no option. We have to play with the hackers and cheaters.

We played 3 games and first 2 we reported the same person all 4 of us. Next match again wiped out no chance! Reported

3rd match same group same cheaters we report them and it says they have been reported to many times...

Like yeah don't put us in the same match!

Week latter we run into the group again and same thing... We stopped after the 2nd match with them having 60 crown wins level 230...

Near the start of the season... We were like lvl 20...

So reporting does nothing! Is there any way to just play a nice game. Not trying for first just happy top 10 and getting our experience but they just ruin the fun.

Other day got the drop on someone headshot in the back with gate keeper ran at them slid under them and I'm instantly dead!

They had jumped aimbotted and killed me nearly instantly!

There is really good players so admit that we are not amazing! But there is good high level and people cheating getting 20 or 30 kills. Snipping you through objects and hitting you when they should not be able to see you while jumping reloading and dancing so the game does not catch them cheating...