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When I went to High School there was this older kid (man) who used to strangle me and kneekick me daily. He had mental issues. And he would always have the same drink. He would put it in his mouth and then spit it on me. And evan till this day I can't touch that drink. I see it every day in the store. That was about 8 years ago. I noticed I was much more open to go out before it happen now I'm not. And a few months ago I saw him from a distance and I started breathing heavy... I dont know is it something I should work on? Or I just ignore it? I'm more scared of letting people in...

It's an extremely shameful situation I know...

EXTRA: this was from 6th-8th grade. He asked me on a date I said I couldnt that date and asked him to do it another time... things esculated. I know he had issues at home, he had severe ADHD and I was an easy target cause im tiny and already was bullied by others so who cares..

A part of me wanna see if I could buy the drink...

Also I live in a country where I couldnt filé a police report. We were both under 18 and best case he goes to prison for 1 month and I have a gang after me and I'd be resting deep now... so its not like US here.. that wasent an option. But there were many witnesses that knew what happen.

I'll cut short in points

Been together since 7.5 years

He has always been careless, emotionally immature kind of person. I always thought he'll get better with time. Since He grew up in super protected environment.

He didn't even do bare minimum efforts and didn't treated me properly , my fault being i never complained and expressed and so he thought its okay to be like that. (And i was waiting that things come from his side itself without me asking)

I used to suffer without letting him know much, me being a hopeless romantic n sensitive person.

Now he's asking me to teach him how to treat girls so that he can do better. I feel its not my place to do. Its something his parents / friends/ himself should have taught him.

As a person he is very pure of heart, honest, and all. But he's superr dumbo and kinda avoid difficult conversations.

Tbh its kinda difficult for me and maybe I'm getting emotional since i have spent soo much time and energy for this guy.

I really wish things worked out but i dont want to lose myself in the process too.

One part of me is like.. should give another chance

Another being let it go. Things might not get better in future as well.

Another is just be friends. I help him develop as a person as a supportive friend. And if things work out or we feel we can try. Otherwise just friends.