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I work remotely so only interactions I’ve had with these people are through teams. I’ve been there almost a year, so far I haven’t had any negative interactions with the people on my team. Today after we all met my boss sends me message separately wanting to speak. She started it with saying that she doesn’t want to read into my body language during the meeting too much but it looked like I rolled my eyes & she wanted to know there’s something I’d want to discuss with her. I told her no & had to ask if this was the first time I gave this impression. She said no it’s happened enough for her to want to bring it up today. I told her it’s been a few stressful weeks & it’s all fatigue, if I did it’s nothing against her. But if she’s been saying I’ve been doing this for a while then I have no excuse to back that up. I have two monitors, one on top of desk & other at eye level so I had to bring that up, she said she didn’t want to bring it up at our 1:1. I told her that I’m pretty responsive communication wise & didn’t think overall I came across that way, I said that to imply that I have no issue communicating with her. I’ve been pretty open with her, she said her bringing this up had nothing to do with my work ethic this is all regarding “attitude”. With all the communication we’ve had in the past, she’s said positive things for the most part & this is the first time I really felt tense talking to her. She honestly seemed kind of upset, tomorrow is our 1:1 for the month & I’m kinda nervous.

I work remotely so only interactions I’ve had with these people are through teams. I’ve been there almost a year, so far I haven’t had any negative interactions with the people on my team. Today after we all met my boss sends me message separately wanting to speak. She started it with saying that she doesn’t want to read into my body language during the meeting too much but it looked like I rolled my eyes & she wanted to know there’s something I’d want to discuss with her. I told her no & had to ask if this was the first time I gave this impression. She said no it’s happened enough for her to want to bring it up today. I told her it’s been a few stressful weeks & it’s all fatigue, if I did it’s nothing against her. But if she’s been saying I’ve been doing this for a while then I have no excuse to back that up. I have two monitors, one on top of desk & other at eye level so I had to bring that up, she said she didn’t want to bring it up at our 1:1. I told her that I’m pretty responsive communication wise & didn’t think overall I came across that way, I said that to imply that I have no issue communicating with her. I’ve been pretty open with her, she said her bringing this up had nothing to do with my work ethic this is all regarding “attitude”. With all the communication we’ve had in the past, she’s said positive things for the most part & this is the first time I really felt tense talking to her. She honestly seemed kind of upset, tomorrow is our 1:1 for the month & I’m kinda nervous.

When I saw him my heart skipped a beat, but trying to play it cool I approached the relationship with only friendship in mind. He ended up being kind and funny. He would stare at me from across the room, leave his group of friends just to talk with me and the TEASING? Well time goes by and I don't see him at my shift. I decided to try and look for his IG. When I clicked on his profile I saw a whole highlight dedicated to his GIRLFRIEND. I was so shocked. I tried my best to get over my feelings. But after a week I had to get some answers, so I texted him on Snap. I told him how I thought my feelings were mutual but I'm aware of his girlfriend, I made sure to mention that I thought she was pretty and how I think they should stay together. He left me on "seen". Even worse? He didn't add me back as a friend !

So a few weeks pass and I see him in the CITY with his GIRLFRIEND and he nods his head to my sister and I (my sister knows nothing about this). I just stood there and said "hi". Next day I see him at WORK? We had a few shallow interactions, but I guess I'm just too real to ignore the fat elephant in the room so I was pissed and ended up flirting with his friend in front of him. After this he wouldn't look at me at all lol. The next shift I saw him, I ended up knocking over his coffee. I wanted the ground to swallow me whole. I decided that I would re-make the coffee and when I gave it to him he smiled and said "thanks I appreciate that". I didn't even reply I just wheezed and left. When the day was over I was walking home with my sis and he drove past with his friends, he started pulling faces. And we just stared at each other. It felt nice, but at the back of my mind I was thinking of his girlfriend. Recently it was his bday, I say happy birthday on Snap again. He replies with "thanks that means a lot" and I reply with the "ok" hand emoji. He STILL didn't add me back. Why won't he add me back on Snapchat?

Advice is appreciated!