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I really need some help on what to do here. I've been in the college town I'm in for about a year, but I actually grew up overseas... military family. Because of my build, I was given a job at the door of a club where a lot of the U students come. There's a $5 cover most nights. The school year is over now but I'm really worried because of fall coming up. See, my job is to collect the cover charge, check ID's, etc. I'm outside the club, not a bouncer inside. Well the owner was getting impatient and worried because by spring break he started bringing up how the club isn't bringing in what he thinks should be the norm. I didn't say anything but I know why. It's because... smh... probably 75 percent of the college girls are really cute and have gotten by me easily. Like 9's. College girls in the States it's like UH😮. And when I try to collect the cover a lot of em will just use their looks on me. Tilt their head over and have a really cute face and I just dunno what to do against that! I had 1 brunette at the end of the year I remember use that on me and I'd already caved in to so many I was determined not to this time but I didn't know what to do so I looked into her face with her head tilted over and a cute face and my mouth started dropping and I tried my best but all at once my mouth just fell open and she raised her eyes up and went😊😊. I let her by and just gave up, humiliated. I need the job honestly, but I can't beat these college girls, they're too good at that.😩With fall coming up I'm worried. What should I do?

The phrase seems to be thrown around a lot and it's fair. Some people are just Doomed Eternally. The ones who have the right people around them to build them up. They better fuckin appreciate where they're at.

Feelings are are to find. I think to fight for happiness you'd have had to have it. Because I've honestly forgotten what that is really. I can smile for thank yous and laugh on other cues. But what is it, that they have. I wish we all knew what we were looking at. Otherwise it's not as important to you as it looks to be for others. It only hurts, that's all. Any happy there hurts. It isn't a big deal to hurt. I don't know why others freak if they're wounding up single. To know you'll never see that smile because it was you. You're buried because you let yourself die a thousand times. Every moment now feels like a lie, I don't want to see me either, because it's not me, I know it's not me here. I'm with them, we're laughing and smiling the fk out of one another. Everything in my head comes out with no apologies. "But the other guy seems so good for her, I'm just stuck in my head". She's there, she's open, she knows. "But she'll regret it". The voices are much more convincing as you get older.

Say that you are going home after visiting your friend's apartment, You had a nice evening and talking loads, she's showing you photo albums of her work and colleagues.

Then it's time to head home. Usually, She would open the door and let you out, therefore being quite close to you as you leave but in my case, she stood across the room (about the length of a regular sized coffee table) and seems like she was waiting for something.

I opened the door and stood there waiting to say something to her but instead I went up and hugged her again before I left her home.

Obviously I want to believe that she might be into me but I don't want to jump to conclusions and get my hopes up. Either that, I've watched too many romcoms