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Black male's experience in college

" Back in college I’ve seen the sexiest Asians just throw themselves heavily at white guys. It was a surreal experience to say the least. I thought I had some sort of favoritism being an exotic, good looking black guy.

I never dated at all in high school, so had no idea what to expect in freshmen year, but I remember the first girls I ever talked to were Asian & they wanted nothing to do with me. I had a white girl that I befriended and at my first big social circle, she was my wing women & everything she told me to say seemed really good. I had no idea how to interact with women myself but the Asian girls still seemed just… indifferent, like they had no reaction to me & it wasn’t fun. Everyone else I encountered freshmen year was extremely social & fun to talk to.

It was probably because they knew I was talking to them with romantic intent & didn’t want to lead me on or had no interest. Then I asked a close white friend and he told me that Asian girls don’t like black guys, they are obsessed with whites, don’t take it personally. Some time later next semester, I got semi close to an Asian girl whose a friend of my best friend.

When we all hung out, she talks about the little things her boyfriend does that she doesn’t like but she gets very gushing about him anyway. Fast forward to sophomore second semester we were all hanging out in the student game room… she reads her phone text & begins crying & runs to the bathroom. My friend and I share a concerned face. Never knew what happened but I thought that this boyfriend must be a real catch. Until I saw his pictures and he was a very chubby, very average or a bit below average white guy. This girl was a 5ft Asian girl with perfect features everywhere, and had a very bubbly, love-able personality. Fast forward 2 years later, they break up. It’s revealed the dude she gave so much love to saw her as a fetish to release all his desires upon."

I am 27 and never had a real girlfriend. I seek a woman that has never had a romantic bond with a guy before, meaning no previous boyfriend or first love, especially from her youth.

I am wanting to us to be each other's first real relationship.

I have lost 20 pounds so far. I have been weightlifting. I have broad shoulders and a strong upper body. I am just needing to lose probably 30 more pounds and I will be more decent then.

I have my own apartment for now. Although, I am recently unemployed and looking to go back to school and get on disability in the meantime.

My personality lacks. I am often insecure and don't know how to joke much. I can laugh and be in a good mood however.

Also, do you think I can find a decently attractive woman that meets what I am looking for?