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The phrase seems to be thrown around a lot and it's fair. Some people are just Doomed Eternally. The ones who have the right people around them to build them up. They better fuckin appreciate where they're at.

Feelings are are to find. I think to fight for happiness you'd have had to have it. Because I've honestly forgotten what that is really. I can smile for thank yous and laugh on other cues. But what is it, that they have. I wish we all knew what we were looking at. Otherwise it's not as important to you as it looks to be for others. It only hurts, that's all. Any happy there hurts. It isn't a big deal to hurt. I don't know why others freak if they're wounding up single. To know you'll never see that smile because it was you. You're buried because you let yourself die a thousand times. Every moment now feels like a lie, I don't want to see me either, because it's not me, I know it's not me here. I'm with them, we're laughing and smiling the fk out of one another. Everything in my head comes out with no apologies. "But the other guy seems so good for her, I'm just stuck in my head". She's there, she's open, she knows. "But she'll regret it". The voices are much more convincing as you get older.

There is a woman I am completly and utterly in love with and have been from the second I heard her voice over the phone when we spoke to each other the first time for work.

It didn't take long for us to form a friendship. Almost immediately. And over a short time we became very close emotionally. We were talking to each other several times every day, but never meeting in person. We met once when I drove to her town on her birthday. I was there for something else but if I'm honest, that thing was an excuse to try and see her. She agreed but I think we were both shy, not many words were exchanged and I left feeling soo deflated. Until she phoned me a couple of hours later and asked why I didn't want to stay with her longer. We called each other 8 times that day after meeting in the morning.

She supported me when my Grandad died. She knew something was wrong and called me to find out. I don't know how she knew, there was no way she could, but she did. My Grandad was my favourite person, and she helped me through it.

This relationship has existed for 2 years now. Although we are not as close as we once were. She used to answer every call whether she was available or not. Even in her sleep. Now she goes hours before texting me back, if she texts back at all. Its been worse over the past couple of months. She won't take my calls, and she texts me as an aquantance rather than a friend. I really miss the relationship we had, and I miss her.

My life before her was not good. She tempted me out of my shell in to the big wide world and has inspired me to live my life. I'm doing things now which I never thought I'd ever do. I'm developing and becoming a better man for me, but because of her.

I want to tell her all of this. I want to thank her before I lose her entirely. I don't know what her reaction will be, I think she won't respond at all and that will be the end. But I don't want the regret of not telling her. I have enough of those.

Is sending my text a good idea?