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Prior to this job, I worked in financial aid for ~2 years. That was my 1st time ever working in the field but before that job I was an academic advisor. Early on during training when I was on a call with a trainer, I ended up breaking down crying bc I felt overwhelmed. I ended up pushing through & the trainers let my new team know that I was doing well. Eventually ended up having higher metrics compared to a lot of people on my team. Anxiety was always there but I got *better*, I was miserable at that job though due to the workload.

Now I’m in my 3rd week working for another school remotely in FA again, this is a school I’ve been trying to get in at for almost as long as I was at my other job (mostly bc of pay). I’m training by myself with the manager & I like her so far, she keeps telling me that I’m doing a good job (I’m not asking) & she felt the need to let the whole team know that I’m doing good/picking up fast when I was introduced to them earlier this week. This job is more in depth vs the last job & she even told me that they only hire people with experience now bc of how much there is to it. When she first taught me something new, it took a few tries & I picked it up, then she teaches me something else & I get it the first try.

I made my first 2 calls today & I felt shaky, she also said nicely that the first few calls will feel like that/ it was obvious it was one of my first calls but I did a good job. I felt like a wreck + then she gave me another assignment of something I caught onto before but I ended up getting stuck this time. I was obv frustrated & it was right before I was done for the day but I just couldn’t think straight bc I felt so upset with my progress.

Am I being too hard on myself? Am I right to believe this might not be a good fit for me? I’ve been so upset since I clocked out & am dreading tomorrow.

A friend of mine rejected her boyfriend’s (now ex) proposal because she wasn’t ready. They ended up breaking up immediately. It got me thinking, if her only reason was timing and she was open to getting engaged later down the line then why the need to break it off?

So I decided to move because my old neighbor who had her lease terminated and was facing eviction because of the hell she's caused never got evicted! Management is so fucking shitty for that! I'm the second neighbor to complain on her for the harassment and excessive loud noises and fights with her boyfriend in her household.

So she didn't get the fuck out and I left! I found a new place. The new place is in a more urban area in comparison and a little run down but doable. I intend on cleaning everything over so me and my child could feel comfortable. It would only be for 1 year.

With a low credit score, other reasons and the fact I'm breaking my lease and had to find a new apartment to avoid renewing my lease has been hard enough! I couldn't find shit and time was ticking.

So my mom TODAY threatens to fight me, calls me a hoe and piece of shit after seeing the apartment and area. Calls everyone she knows talking badly about me. This was all over the apartment and area! I decided to disconnect myself from her. She wasn't even trying to be positive or supportive or thankful I got out of the toxic and miserable previous apartment.

I don't even know what to think, it's crazy. Her reaction was as if I called her a bitch or set her house on fire or something.

Thoughts?