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9 months ago I got a new working student job where I was assigned 2 supervisors. From the very beginning I felt like everyone was very disinterested in me as if it was so obvious that I’m the most boring person in the world.

At first I assumed that maybe it was because I was just a temp but later I noticed that everyone, especially my supervisor, got along great with other students as if they were best friends despite the age gap of 20 years.

With me however it is the exact opposite, my supervisor even avoids walking next to me and walks ahead or behind me which I find quite rude, is super short and dry even though we only discuss work related topics and sometimes seems uncomfortable and very disinterested in me but makes small talk with every other student (they don’t even work together) just fine, his work wife makes a face when she sees me even though we never talk. I was also left out of a WhatsApp group that was supposed to Organise after work events (even new interns where in this group). It almost feels like I offended someone even though nothing ever happened.

I just don’t understand why almost everyone reacts so negatively to me from the very beginning. I’m not ugly, Im told that I dress nicely, i don’t smell, I’m not rude or loud. These people just assume by looking at me that I must be unworthy of their acquaintance. It is most likely nothing about metoo since many married peope flirt around here. Does anyone have similar experience or maybe an idea what could be the underlaying reason because it is really upsetting me?

I'm hurting right now and very upset. My suspicious were confirmed just 2 days ago when my husband left his FB messenger open. It was messages between him and my SIL (sister-in-law). He admitted to her that he always loved his ex girlfriend Olivia from his much younger years. They met as 9 year-olds playmates, then dated for a short time in their Sophomore year of HS, she broke up the next year and met someone else.

The woman is married but still has him on his FB contact list as friends. He admitted to my SIL that he still loves her more than me. He loves me but I'm not really his first option. He would've wanted to have kids with her. He also said it was true what he once told me while drunk when we were just dating. Then this was the hurting part for me, the SIL asked if he would leave me if Olivia were to get divorced now and she reciprocated his feelings and he reply was a ''Yes, unfortunately I would leave (my name) but that'll never happen. I have to accept being in Olivia's forever friendzone''.

Flashback to the time we were just boyfriend and girlfriend:

We were drinking and while making love, he called me by her name. He literally said ''Oh Olivia, I love you... yeah''. Then tried to fix it right away when I got upset immediately. He called it a stupid drunken mistake and how we would never get drunk like that ever again and even reconfirmed me a bunch of times that he got over her already. I stupidly believed him.

Is this fair? We have a 7 year-old son and he's still obsessing over her? He never got over her and just got with me as second best.