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I have my reasons why I'm still like this. I've been like this my whole and people find me weird for some odd reason. My high school years were the worst for me. Everyone used to judge me for no reason. Called me ugly and called me a boy. When clearly I was a girl. Boys knew I was a girl so why did the girls think I was a boy? My self esteem was so low back then and still is. I never did anything to anyone and nobody stayed my friend for long. Everyone from high school left me for no reason which really hurt me because I did nothing to them. Out of the blue one old “friend” texted me after 5 years. At that point I lost her number so I messaged “Who is this?” she never messaged me back. Some people really get on my nerves so that's the reason I'm silent. It's so hard to make friends nowadays because I was hurt years ago. Any advice would be really appreciated.

2 months ago, we went out to dinner and talked for 3 hrs on first meet up. We were in contact via Instagram messages. Then we talked on the phone to buy tickets & see a movie. The day before movie I asked if he could stop sending those IG video reels politely, it was a bit overboard. On day of movie, he said good morning and I replied with a wave emoji. He normally would continue the conversation via Instagram but doesn’t message again until he said he was waiting at the theater. I was not as bubbly as I was on first meet up , I was very quiet (not against him). He was annoying me during the movie, he’s the type to laugh and make noises when something exciting came on (there’s nothing wrong with that but he was obnoxious in my opinion). He nudged me during the movie and asked if I was ok because I was quiet and I said yes. At the end I told him thanks, he said you’re welcome and he said drive safe. When I spoke with him on the phone the day before movie, he told me that he talked about me with his friends but right after movie he sent a message saying that he “wasn’t really feeling it from me and it’s not going to work for him”. Tbh I was planning on letting him know I wasn’t interested whenever he would’ve reached out to me again. Flash fwd to a month ago, he sends me a dm with an inside joke, I just left him on read again. He continued to follow me on social media but unmatched with me from the dating app we met through, I unfollowed him from IG. And then after a while he finally unfollows on IG