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My boyfriend (29) and I (27) were dating for almost 4 years. We lived together in a rental for 3 years. We talked about buying a house and had multiple house viewing. After 6 months one of our offers on a house was accepted. The day before we had to sign the contract he said he can’t do it because he needs to live on his own first. He feels like he missed out on that experience because he went to live with me right out of college. He says he hates himself for it and is embarrassed but it’s just something he needs to do. He found a rental for a year and is planning to move in next week. He says he still loves me and hopes we can be together again after he found himself. Also that he was planning on proposing to me next year but this is just something he has to do. Should I stay around or leave him?

Even with no actual experience I still believe I fall under this category, I wonder if I need to manifest the law of attraction or something even though I do think that’s bs.

You know when you have a gut feeling? I’ve been on and off the dating apps for years, it’s come to the point where I’m not as interested & I swipe on matches/reply to msgs every few days. Dating apps are the only way I’ve tried dating as I dont have a social life but dating apps have been successful for quite a few people I know. I’ve never had a real relationship, I saw someone for a few months maybe 5 years ago & something told me after I saw him that’d I’d be single for a long time. With him it felt like settling & I refuse to ever be with someone that made me feel like that again.

I had to use dating apps bc I’m not very friendly & I don’t get approached in person. I’m told I’m cute/attractive & I will say I have a very low sex drive (haven’t masturbated or had sex in 5 years). I don’t think this is a huge deal considering this isn’t something that will be an issue that early on, a guy can’t just look at my profile/see me in person & know that right off the bat.

I get matches (never been the issue) but it’s always: ghosting, fizzling out, lack of interest (can go both ways), feelings not reciprocated, just not a good match & some guys are just crazy. I just always have a gnawing feeling like guys aren’t attracted to me, I’d get told once in a while that some guy looked at me/found me cute but they never do anything about it. And I don’t either hence why I’m posting this

TLDR: based off the description, is this something that’s unlucky in love?