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English is not my first language so my grammar and such might be off.

So I'm the youngest of my siblings and have a niece 21 and nephew 16 from my sister and brother. And I am 22. So one day the three of us went shopping and the store owner is very familiar to my family but first time meeting me. So on that day I kept looking in his direction without letting him notice cause damn he is so handsome. But I was super quiet other than shaking his hand and saying hi and goodbye.

He was helping us out but I kept every now and then turning to his direction and would catch him staring with a slight smile but quickly looking away when he sees me looking.

The second time we went he didn't look as much but was friendly then he asked my niece not me directly just her if I'm her sister she said not I'm actually her aunt and he looked so shocked and confused we laughed and he again said to her im very quiet and on silent mode we laughed and I just said yeah and he looked quickly at me.

Third time walking up to the store his outside helping one of his workers but when he sees us he quickly stops and walks in to wait for us to greet and help us out but little distracted and later on I went with my other niece who was younger into the store he was busy but when walking away he smiles.
Later on when walking past the store I can see him coming to stand in the doorway just staring at us but with such serious but curious eyes.
I'm really attracted to him and don't see him often but when I do I keep looking for signs do these mean anything please don't think I'm a shallow or selfish or self praises myself trying to trick myself thinking he is giving signs. People asking me about our cultures, His Muslim and im Caucasian.

English is not my first language so my grammar and such might be off.

So I'm the youngest of my siblings and have a niece 21 and nephew 18 from my sisters. And I am 22. Si one day the three of us went shopping and the store owner is very familiar to my family but first time meeting me. So on that day I kept looking in his direction without letting him notice cause damn he is so handsome. But I was super quiet other than shaking his hand and saying hi and goodbye.

He was helping us out but I kept every now and then turning to his direction and would catch him staring with a slight smile but quickly looking away when he sees me looking.

The second time we went he didn't look as much but was friendly then he asked my niece not me directly just her if I'm her sister she said not I'm actually her aunt and he looked so shocked and confused we laughed and he again said to her im very quiet and on silent mode we laughed and I just said yeah and he looked quickly at me.

Third time walking up to the store his outside helping one of his workers but when he sees us he quickly stops and walks in to wait for us to greet and help us out but little distracted and later on I went with my other niece who was younger into the store he was busy but when walking away he smiles.

Later on when walking past the store I can see him coming to stand in the doorway just staring at us but with such serious but curious eyes.

I'm really attracted to him and don't see him often but when I do I keep looking for signs do these mean anything please don't think I'm a shallow or selfish or self praises myself trying to trick myself thinking he is giving signs

Imagine your life is a movie, and you're the main character because it's your life. Are you a protagonist who is a hero, anti-hero, or villain? Why?

If you're wondering about me:It's me hi, I'm the problem, it's me. I think I'd be the anti-hero and no, it's not just because I'm a Taylor Swift fan. I think at the core, I'm the kind of person who always tries to do the right thing, but, sometimes when I'm a little too in my feelings I can become reckless and selfish and act irrationally because I feel bad, and that creates damage I only see after the damage has been done. Why I'd not class myself as a villain is because usually after I see the damage I've done, I will try to fix it and own up to my mistake, and I feel a villain would just take the completely selfish route and ruin things because if they can't be happy nobody can, whereas I still may not be happy but once I'm back to rationality I'm like: "Okay I did something bad, how can I fix this?" Also I tend to have a lot self-sabotaging qualities that I'm completely aware of, but for the most part indulge in anyway and often I do little to change but I'm trying to change that now, I just can't expect it to happen overnight. In the past my thought process was more: "I'm destructing myself, not anyone else, so why should I care? It's just me." But that's an incredibly toxic mindset to have and I'm trying to change because I have a lot of potential to do well, but because of my self-destructive tendencies that potential often just stays potential. But I will change don't worry.

Anyway enough about me, what about you?