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I had an interaction with a girl at the gas station. I am wondering if anything was there or just my imagination.

I pulled in and a cute girl was pumping gas to my left. She finished as I was getting there. I did a few things and then left my vehicle. I was naturally facing her and we made eye contact. She was looking down and we caught each other's eye. She looked away quick and looked back to me quick. It was like a surprised look like I caught her attention and she was checking me out. I normally downplay any attention from girls so if I think she was checking me out it seems obvious to me that she was. I smile.

I pump gas and I'm blocked by the pump. The normal amount of time, maybe five minutes. I can't see her but she is still there. She hung around probably ten minutes longer than normal because I thought she was leaving as I pulled in. I finish pumping gas and I see from my peripheral vision that she is fidgeting with stuff in her car still. She is looking for stuff in her purse for like 8 minutes without ever accomplishing anything. It just looks like she is pretending to be busy. I get in my car and do a few things. It's time for me to leave and I am headed in her direction. I look over to see if she is going. She has her purse in her hand and is still fidgeting. When I look at her, she looks at me, immediately puts her purse down, and then we continue to look at each other. It seemed like she was pretending to be busy with her purse and immediately stopped when I looked at her. I just looked like who's going first and then left. She left right after me. Pretty anti-climactic. But it felt like there was something there. It looked like she checked me out and stayed longer than normal pretending to be busy. She then was immediately not busy and tried to make eye contact with me. But how would it have played out any different? Does it sound like it would have been alright to start a conversation with her? Was this anything or am I just imagining things?

I have anxiety about my looks, and then I regularly notice women are either staring at me in general and when I make direct eye contact they smile. But I'm too scared to approach them because maybe it's because they think I look strange as I'm 191cm 6'3" tall and I feel my posture isn't the best... Would that be why they are staring?

Or the other bizarre thing I notice; is women young and old and I mean from approximately what I assume is 18+ y. o to 60 y. o staring at me, but not my face.. they stare at my crotch area.. as I can see them looking at me but not at my face initially, and if I catch them staring there they either go red and seem really embarrassed, with a few younger girls who were serving me forgetting to charge me for my purchases... And therefore seem really embarrassed and fumbling around... Or they will be staring down there and then when they realise I've noticed them staring they will look up and smile directly to my face or smile but go slightly red and embarrassed...

I'm so anxious and worried I'm some tall weird looking guy and that's why they are staring at me and my face or bizarrely at my Crotch area and getting embarrassed like they forgot what they were doing and bright red in the face, or slightly red and smiling directly at me...

I don't approach women anymore as i did a few times in my life and they acted like I had no right to be approaching them as I'm not good enough for them...

Instead a few of the times I've noticed women staring at my lower region and didn't get embarrassed but smiled, well they approached me and initiated the flirting...

What is going on with me... ?

Are they approving me because they pitty me... 😞

As I'm often told online that I'm "very unattractive" so a nice way to say I'm ugly, and I'm not their type... So why would they stare and approach me?

I feel so defeated and honestly think even looking for anyone that would be attracted to me is utterly useless 😔