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I’m starting to realize that maybe men just don’t like me, I’m going to be 30 soon & never been in a proper relationship. I don’t want kids at least but I really don’t think I’m unattractive, I have self esteem issues so my opinion changes. But I’ve been on the dating apps for years on and off, my interest in them just became lesser over the years. Getting matches are never the issue it’s just it working out, always ghosting, fizzling out, etc. I’m told I’m cute/attractive, I never get asked out by guys in person, I can confidently say I’ve never been approached by a guy I found physically attractive. Back when I was 23 I dated someone briefly & I felt so offended by only being able to attract him it felt like settling I couldn’t be with him, I’ve been alone this whole time that shows you how men feel about me. When I was younger and around people my age more often I was told these guys found me attractive but they never did anything about it. The fact that beautiful people are always taken it makes me realize I’m maybe just not good enough. Isn’t it strange being as old as I am & still not meeting someone that I actually like? I’m not asking for a lot: good looks, taller than me (doesn’t have to be 6+ ft), educated, good sense of humor, not a cheater etc. I feel like I’ve genuinely become less interested in dating with my experience, I have a lower than average sex drive too I think

I'm a Christian but I've been in a sexual relationship with my boyfriend for about 10 months. For a few months, I've been having feelings of guilt after sex and it literally seems like I'm being sent messages from God to stop having sex before marriage.

I told my boyfriend about this and he said we can work on it together a week ago but yesterday, he brought it up again and said he doesn't think it'll be possible and that he'd not be able to cope. We cried on the phone for hours. He said the chances of him cheating are high and he might get frustrated if we go through with it. I appreciate his honesty and I love him very much.

He's a good man too. He kept begging me to help him; to compromise because he didn't want to loose me over something like this. He literally cried very bitterly and I almost folded but, I kept thinking that if he didn't want to loose me, he'd be willing to go on this journey with me. I told him we are allowed to fail because we're trying to stop and it's obviously not going to be easy.

I'm just really disappointed because he is a Christian like me and I didn't expect this answer but then i also totally understand because he is big on sex.

I'm really confused... If you've ever been in a situation like this, please help. If you've not please what do you think can save us?