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28F, I’ve gone this long without ever meeting someone I genuinely like or ever falling in love. I get matches on the dating apps, if I want to score the dates that hasn’t been the issue. It’s always the ghosting, fizzling out, lack of interest from either person etc. I use the apps very casually but it seems like dating happens so effortlessly, regardless of their looks. I’m pretty reserved & far from being too eager so the “love will find you when you’re not looking” cliche isn’t working. I game which can be social, I don’t really have friends but the apps or even just running into someone outside (never organic) hasn’t happened

He said he noticed a lot of people looking at him but they were more attractive than me.

He came home to me (it was my birthday) the following day. He slept with me took me out for dinner and told me how much he loved me many times.

Today I asked when I’d see him next he said we aren’t together. Made a new Instagram account and followed people he had previous history with that I told him I was uncomfortable about and someone he tried to cheat with. He hasn’t done this in years. I was away at the weekend with my friend and he claimed his dick was super clean now feels weird and that I must have cheated. He said I dunno if I believe you didn’t cheat. I didn’t cheat. I didn’t even talk to a single guy. I had offers but I didn’t take any and texted him
Until his phone died about how much I loved and missed him.

We had a falling out because he turned his phone off when he was out and he never does this so I asked and said holy shit you’re cheating Avis how could you do this to me etc. and he fell out with me said he was done cos I said that. Then agreed to talk agisn.

We’d be rocky because I was asking often because he seemed weird are you cheating on me? Do you have someone else? Do you hide our relationship? Etc maybe once a day some days others I wouldn’t ask at all.

Did he look at me and think I can do well better than her

Or is it revenge he knew this would hurt me in the worst way possible and now he’s trying to do that. He does think I cheated so now wants revenge or he got his ego filled and now thinks he can get whoever.

He also told me I get in the way of his goals and it isn’t against me it’s anyone he doesn’t want a relationship he wants to focus on his hobby he wants to make a full time job. He promised me he had no one else. And doesn’t want anyone. He’s not interested in anyone but made this new account and added them and didn’t add me.

All this when he said he loved me the night before

When did you meet your first love? a first relationship or first big crush does NOT automatically equivalate first love. Some people can go through many crushes and relationships before truly falling in love for the first time.