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I'm in a loving relationship. No friends unless you're sister counts and person you barely text counts. I have a part time job that gives me like 8 to 12 hours a week. No pets and in a two bedroom apartment.

My boyfriend loves doing his projects they take up all his time and I'm glad that he has something he loves to do. I do as well. I love video games, art, watching shows, listening to books and crocheting. But I never feel like I get enough attention from him. Even if we spend the whole weekend together and he doesn't do his projects. Like I get all of his attention.

But somehow I just feel like anytime I spend with him, isn't enough even if we spent the 24/7 together. I know I shouldn't feel this way. But I don't know how to not feel this way. I keep myself as busy as possible. But nothing is ever enough. How can I feel like it's enough?

I have tried to make friends but it's so hard to do and then I feel like all the friends I have ever had just leave me. Should we get a pet so I can focus on something else besides him? Or just deal with it? Or do something else that will make it feel like enough?

Please help. I cannot afford a therapist so I come to you guys.

Even with no actual experience I still believe I fall under this category, I wonder if I need to manifest the law of attraction or something even though I do think that’s bs.

You know when you have a gut feeling? I’ve been on and off the dating apps for years, it’s come to the point where I’m not as interested & I swipe on matches/reply to msgs every few days. Dating apps are the only way I’ve tried dating as I dont have a social life but dating apps have been successful for quite a few people I know. I’ve never had a real relationship, I saw someone for a few months maybe 5 years ago & something told me after I saw him that’d I’d be single for a long time. With him it felt like settling & I refuse to ever be with someone that made me feel like that again.

I had to use dating apps bc I’m not very friendly & I don’t get approached in person. I’m told I’m cute/attractive & I will say I have a very low sex drive (haven’t masturbated or had sex in 5 years). I don’t think this is a huge deal considering this isn’t something that will be an issue that early on, a guy can’t just look at my profile/see me in person & know that right off the bat.

I get matches (never been the issue) but it’s always: ghosting, fizzling out, lack of interest (can go both ways), feelings not reciprocated, just not a good match & some guys are just crazy. I just always have a gnawing feeling like guys aren’t attracted to me, I’d get told once in a while that some guy looked at me/found me cute but they never do anything about it. And I don’t either hence why I’m posting this

TLDR: based off the description, is this something that’s unlucky in love?