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It's impossible to forget them once you have grasped. But i heard about them MORE than a 100 times. And still kept forgetting.

No cognitive issues. But it was a defense mechanism. There is no way that to study it as extensively as i did and keep forgetting it is just a coincidence with me also fearing to be changed. Wanting to be changed but there is a huge reason why i became this way, to survive.

Both of my clinger-pusher parents are fearful-avoidant because of their pretty bad traumas growing up, till this day they get scared when complimented, for example.

And i learnt that the most widespread recommendations are very harmful, like; "it's no use overthinking" or "love your parents" These spoken excuses always push the anxiety further down so tightly it overflows out as irrationality.

i rarely see my parents and when i do i cannot bring myself to tell them:

Forgiving should come naturally, not through ideology. Just like breathwork never worked for me until opening up my emotions triggered the breathing changes naturally. It is ok to look like you're possesed for days while pouring out the repressed anxiety.

They still press it down with either "we blamed them, they wronged us, now forgive and move on" (my dad) or "they suck, let's revenge forever" (my mom).

Last time i told mom "i have had this bad habit forever, it is finally going away!" she rudely acknowledged and dismissed it in one same sentence.

I think everyone who refuses to investigate this topic and to persist until trauma psychology becomes as clear as adding 1+1, is afraid of finding out they have issues - even if they know they do - because we developed our issues as a means to survive. letting go of daddy issues frightens us to death, it has been our survival strategy.

The tragedy is that 40% of all adults have UNRESOLVED infancy anxiety issues and seek relationships to cope with them instead of fixing their body's repressed panic.

I dated the most stunning girl from my small religion/culture. She was phenomenally beautiful in my eyes. She had v rare features like bright green eyes and fair skin and very natural. Never seen a girl like her - how does she even exist? We had a really good connection/chemistry too!

The reasons she gave me for breaking up with me were that I was tight with money. I did gift her small things, pay for the first 5 dates, and then we did 50/50.

I wish I gave her the full princess treatment. I wish honestly 😭 I am that way inclined to provide but my sisters mainly told me not too. I wish I could go back as she told me she felt protected when I would pay for her things. She wanted the soft life. She loved the whole ‘daddy’ thing.

The part that confused me was she didn’t want to give up work when she gets married.

I was good to her, but I should’ve just worshipped her so I know I tried my best even if she left so I would have no regrets.

My first girlfriend and I should have given it my all. I still tried my best but look back at small mistakes I made. My life is over 😭

#1 really caught my attention.

I mean here in America at least 95% of the women love to act innocent and deflect things in order to play hard to get.

however back in my native country is the polar opposite. if they think you are hot or just love the game you throw at them they will use that lust to tease or test you such as replying with...

"I bet you can't handle a girl like me anyways!"

or if its love that you are bringing to the table they try to bring the realness out of you such as replying...

"is that all you got?"

so with this said I think women really do know what a man is saying most of the time. whether she chooses to act innocent however is up to her and her culture from the looks of it