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31F and anytime there is a shift in the consistency of communication, I assume they’re not interested. That’ll mean either I’ll make sure it’s a slow fade or just stop replying since it’ll be inevitable at one point. This person was one of the first in a while to talk about gaming on a similar level, not sure why the lack of replies? The conversation wasn’t going on long in the first place but the similar interest seemed slightly promising. I get it hasn’t been a full day yet but the change in response time doesn’t give a good feeling. I might sound neurotic but it’s a gut feeling, I’m not going to beat a dead horse. What went wrong? I’m purple and he’s grey, considering he’s 40M, I’d expect more maturity but clearly not always the case.

Link to messages: https://imgur.com/a/ZBB5CGF

(Your name),

These past few weeks have been "tearable" (inside joke) but also a huge wake-up call. I’ve done a lot of thinking, and you were right — I needed to get my life together.

I know my choices, especially with drinking, have hurt us. I’m proud to say that today marks one full month sober. I haven’t touched alcohol since that awful night and I never want to again. This time apart has made me realize you mean so much more to me than any bad habit. To make sure I stay on track, I started taking Naltrexone and I begin counseling on November 3rd. This isn’t another empty promise, it's a real change.

In the past month, I’ve passed my real estate exam, picked up extra shifts to pay off my debt, and even started going to the gym again (though I miss my gym partner). I’m doing these things for myself and because I want to be the kind of woman you once believed I could be.

You’ll always be someone I imagined building a life with. No matter what happens, please know how much I love you and how grateful I am that you have been a huge part of pushing me to become my best self.

Whatever happens next, thank you — truly — for everything.

With love,
Emma