My girlfriend cheated on me and so did I without her knowing. What should I do?

So here is the deal…..I found out that my girlfriend of 2 years cheated on me and had been talking to this guy for about a month or so. I got into her phone records and found a number that constantly kept coming back and back. I decided to call the number to see who’s number that was. The next day I did and found out that it was a guy’s phone. That same day she came to my house and I took her phone and dialed the number. The number was saved under her best friends name which was Martha and her friend was renamed to something else. I confronted her and asked her who that was?. She broke down to tears and began to tell me everything how she had met him, how long she had been talking to him, and how sorry she really was about everything. I felt so betrayed, heartbroken, confused and sad. I began to loose it. I lost my cool and got so mad and sad at the same time. I wanted to kill myself . And I did try to kill myself that same night, I began to drink and got so drunk I ran in front of a car to get hit. The car came to a complete stop without hitting me. My friend came and picked me up from the floor. I felt so sad, lonely and heartbroken. She was everything I ever wanted, I wanted her to be my wife, the mother of my children. I love this girl to death I want to be with her so much, I want to work things out, I want to forget everything that happen and just be with her. The next day after finding out I picked her up from work and continued to do so for about a week. We both acted like none of this had happened. We got around to talk about it and she did apologize and told me she was really really sorry for what she had done. We talked and came to the conclusion to give each other some time to thinks things out. I’m writing this 3 days from the last time we spoke. We never really gave each other time to think about things on our own. I love her with all my heart has to offer and I hate to think about loosing her. I would do anything to have her back and being with her, but at the same time I have this issue on my head that I keep and keep thinking about. It’s been 3 days now and I been thinking about all this. And I did the same I cheated on her maybe four to five times trough out the two years we been together and I feel so bad about it and I know that was wrong on my behalf, but she doesn’t know she never found out. Now the question is what should I do about this? Should I take her back do to the fact that I do love her so much and that I want her to be in my life for the rest of my life even though I did cheat on her as well. I want to make things right. She’s willing to work things out and so am I but I’m so confused. I need help! so much help so please people tell me anything that you can to help me with all this please.
My girlfriend cheated on me and so did I without her knowing. What should I do?
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