Should I contact my ex?

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My ex liked a post from my public instagram page a few days ago, later today I made my page private but I am very concerned about myself right now..
I thought I was over him.. since many months I've not even thought about him... life was fine (other serious problems in life existed ofcourse).. but since he liked the post last week, I can't stop thinking about him, I'm obsessed with his thoughts and scenarios... I call him my ex bcz he is my past, in the past we never dated, we just talked for like a week and a half and it didn't work out well, and there were some ups and downs later in time but we never dated so I don't call him my ex boyfriend, but still he was my ex crush. I can't afford therapy, someone please help me. I also have this crazy urge to talk to him, to be alone with him, this urge started after looking at his profile picture last week.
u knw i had the hard time in the past to get over him, now suddenly (god knows for what reason he checked my profile and liked the picture) after seeing his profile after a long time, he's been on my mind for most of my time since 1 whole week!
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In the past i used to look forward to go to college, just to see him from afar. even if he didn't come most days, just the hope to get to see him made me go to college. this was before lockdown and pandemic. now after two years, when I am in 3rd yr of college, he is in 4th yr, in his course (that he is studying) he is supposed to work at a hospital. most of the time and isn't supposed to go to college at all.
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and I had some depression and serious social anxiety, so I wasn't attending college (college started like normal 1 week ago), today I went to college (note that I've been thinking about him since a week) and got utterly broken that he won't be coming to college, now my will to go to college has dropped even more, in the past i used to go pushing my social anxeity aside... but now, there's no reason to go... also, I really really wanna contact him but I don't know what to say. im sad
Should I contact my ex?
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