Break Up & Divorce

Someone please help me out? Were my feelings valid?

Me and this guy started liking each other nine months ago but I wasn't in good mental state and didn't trust him at all because he seemed desperate and flirted with my friend after getting random request from her. Then I broke connection with him but we again connected and started talking like a couple and I told him I wasn't in good mental state to date. We did talk like couple and when we met he tried to kiss me on first date and I got uncomfortable and left early. On second date I just went to meet him but he pressurized to kiss me (my first kiss) spanked me, and I hated it but then I found out he flirted with other girls too. It hurted a lot and whe n I confronted him and denied to meet him he said I was evil and he didn't do anything morally wrong and triggered my insecurities, belittled me, said I am like his ex so I left him but I feel really hurt. I don't know If these feelings are valid or not. Someone please tell me that are my feelings valid or not? please tell me.
Someone please help me out? Were my feelings valid?
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