I am 21 and my boyfriend is 30. So recently my life has just gone downhill. I recently got fired and lost my job. I did get another job offer but was unable to take that job due to the shift ending in the middle of the night. Also, my brother is currently in the hospital dying. He’s brain dead after being shot and there is nothing doctors can do. Three years ago my mother passed away the same way. She was also brain dead after being in a coma for a while. So this just feels like Its happening all over again to me and I have to relive it. I feel so depressed and I really need my boyfriend so much since I don’t have much family left. Both my parents are dead and now I’m watching my brother die as well. But the thing is I don’t want to drain him with all of my problems and make him sick of me. I’m going through a lot and I feel very sad. He makes me happy and I do have a urge to be around him because he soothes my pain. I really want to be around him through this difficult time But I don’t want him to think I’m a mess who doesn’t have my life together. That’s why I’ve been thinking about breaking up with him so he doesn’t feel overwhelmed with me and my hard time. He has work and is very tired when he gets off. I try to smile and fake happiness so I don’t feel like a burden. But deep down I wanna cry in his arms. What would be the best decision? Should I leave this relationship and save him the trouble? Am I selfish to want to stay around him? Would it be smart to break up with him even though I really don’t want to.
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He says he loves me and he says supportive things but I don't know if he means it.
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