Trust issues are ruining my relationship with my boyfriend?

Anonymous

I met my boyfriend on bumble and I started relationship with my boyfriend some six to seven months ago and everything was going fine. He is sweet, understanding and everything. He lost his job few months back and decided he would study for masters degree from another country. He would stay here for another six to twelve months, we decided that that we would enjoy what we have and breakup when we he goes out. But I love him so much that I feel like my life is incomplete without him and I really don’t know if I can survive without him. The fact that he will go out soon bothers me so much that I got depressed and am not able to enjoy right now. He tried to breakup with me several times but I feel so hopeless and depressed so to not hurt me he stays. Recently we started having fights. Recently one was where I was having trust issues because he got email from bumble even tho we both deleted bumble shortly after dating. He said it was an old account. I understood. Then he would stay up online after saying goodbye to me. I felt like he doesn’t want to be with me anymore and asked for an invite in servers he stays up and I know it was breach of his private space by me. Now there was a fight due to this reason only and wanted to end relationship but I apologised for everything and told I’d change my behaviour, he says he is staying but it will take time for him to be normal again.
I have decided to take therapy for these reasons and my personal issues. He is still reserved and weird towards me and I feel like I am talking to a stranger. I know I did a grave mistake. But I want to regain his trust and show him I am getting better. What should I do now?

Trust issues are ruining my relationship with my boyfriend?
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