Trust issues are ruining my relationship with my boyfriend?

[Anonymous]

I met my boyfriend on bumble and I started relationship with my boyfriend some six to seven months ago and everything was going fine. He is sweet, understanding and everything. He lost his job few months back and decided he would study for masters degree from another country. He would stay here for another six to twelve months, we decided that that we would enjoy what we have and breakup when we he goes out. But I love him so much that I feel like my life is incomplete without him and I really don’t know if I can survive without him. The fact that he will go out soon bothers me so much that I got depressed and am not able to enjoy right now. He tried to breakup with me several times but I feel so hopeless and depressed so to not hurt me he stays. Recently we started having fights. Recently one was where I was having trust issues because he got email from bumble even tho we both deleted bumble shortly after dating. He said it was an old account. I understood. Then he would stay up online after saying goodbye to me. I felt like he doesn’t want to be with me anymore and asked for an invite in servers he stays up and I know it was breach of his private space by me. Now there was a fight due to this reason only and wanted to end relationship but I apologised for everything and told I’d change my behaviour, he says he is staying but it will take time for him to be normal again.
I have decided to take therapy for these reasons and my personal issues. He is still reserved and weird towards me and I feel like I am talking to a stranger. I know I did a grave mistake. But I want to regain his trust and show him I am getting better. What should I do now?

[Anonymous]

oh boy... never ever put someone up so high that you feel like you "cannot survive" without them. especially since this is just a boyfriend and you were together for such a short amount of time. it's also toxic that you technically won't allow him to break up with you because he felt bad...

you need to turn your life around. and i'm trying to say this in a loving way. you cannot be like this towards people you're in a relationship with. i'm very glad you are taking therapy, please continue it and work on yourself. it's the only thing you should be doing right now and it's a step in the right direction.

personally, i think you two should move on.

[Anonymous]

It is going to be hard to repair the situation now.

[Asker]

What do you mean?

[Iron_Man]

Tell him your true feelings

[Asker]

He knows my true feelings. He told me still love me but he doesn’t know if he wants to be in this relationship anymore.

[Iron_Man]

The he doesn’t love you

[Iron_Man]

Then

[In_Trance]

therapy