I broke up with my ex girlfriend (together 3 months) but we carried on seeing each other for a couple of weeks , I was going through a depressive episode and she wanted to be there for me , at the time I was quite cold and cruel to her saying I never wanted to get back with her and really started nitpicking all her flaws to her (horrible I know and I regret it so much, looking back I think I was trying to push her away) threw out all this she never said a bad thing about me she was always kind and supportive even when she was upset she would just leave saying she didn’t want to say anything to hurt me back, at the time this made me more angry thinking why won’t she just leave me alone even when I’m horrible to her, the most recent argument she tried to communicate with me that she knew I was going threw a lot but asked if I could please just let her know if I need space instead of ignore her I took it to far and told her id met someone else that I really cared about and I didn’t want to be with her anymore, immediately she thanked me for telling her told me she cared about me but she was not wanting contact with me any further , said she wished me luck and she was sorry that she got attached but she was going to block me to move on and so she wouldn’t come in between me and the other woman. There was never another woman and now I feel like an idiot , I wanted to push her away because i was scared but now she's gone i miss her so much and feel stupid for letting my insecurities get the best of me, she has blocked me but i dont know wether to leave her alone because what i did she never deserved that or at the very least apoligise?
im scared and feel like a coward she really is an amazing person , i truly think she deserves better, so im unsure wether to apoligise, i dont want to open up old wounds, if she has moved on.
