I just embarrassed the shit out of myself. how do I recover from this?

I reached out to my ex for the first time after the break up 4 months ago. He came on my mind and I missed him. I also just wanted closure smh. When I called him he picked and said who is this? I said it’s me and he immediately said what do you want? SMH. I told him I missed him and he said he’s on the phone with something important. He will call back. I haven’t heard anything and it’s been hours. I sent a text too…. No response. I’m totally embarrassed and just seriously hurt by how much he hates me. SMH I don’t know how to feel at all smh

I just embarrassed the shit out of myself. how do I recover from this?
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