She was not my girlfriend but my crush who I wanted. i was insanely attracted to her as she was extremely gorgeous. I fell for her at first sight. But I could barely muster up the courage to speak to her and was nervous or couldn't think of what and how to say to her, didn't share any common friends too. I always was looking to impress her and wanted her to talk to me since i didn't know how to start a convo as we were strangers before. She did speak to me but since I was always expecting her to come to me and talk, the entire situation became a hot mess of miscommunication and misunderstandings. I finally ruined it by rejecting her idea of talking our misunderstandings out. She seemed mature and kind.
So who is better and whom i have a better future?