Is this weird? Masturbation question?

emelylove
So I love my boyfriend very very much and I know when he masturbates he thinks celebrities, porn stars, or even porn stars that look like /remind of me. And I rarely masturbate to celebrities for me I mainly do it to him, people I know from childhood or even people I’ve met in college…. but recently…someone popped into my head one of my bfs friends…my fantasy is usually of me and my boyfriend and then the friend is just watching to walks in/by but sometimes boyfriend isn’t in the scenarios at all but it turns me on …. that’s when I feel super dirty and weird…. so is this weird? I’m scared if my boyfriend finds out he’ll be mad at me or think I don’t find him attractive…but I really do …. we don’t have sex that often because I typically develop vaginal infections and it makes sex painful when I get treated for it it always comes back … I need to know cause it works for me…
Is this weird? Masturbation question?
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