Is it normal that I really want to have a boyfriend very badly?

One that likes me for more than just looks and actually loves me.

I have diagnosed (mdd) major depressive disorder and think maybe if I have a boyfriend than I wouldn’t feel so shitty and worthless.

I’m in 11th grade but in online school because of Covid so I’m not even sure how I’m going to find one.
Is it normal that I really want to have a boyfriend very badly?
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