Anyway, i moved back to my parents house a couple of years ago to help them take care of my grandma, she passed away this month but i got used to help my parents and i feel bad leaving them alone now... (Also, I live in Europe and it's kinda normal around here)
My only problem is, I am good single, i have too much anxiety to start dating again, I also am very scared of intimacy so for now, I think the best option is really to just be single but my mom ask me on a daily bases when i am getting married and giving her grandkids, I don't know what to tell her anymore, I already said I dont want to get married, that i don't want children (even tho i do, but like i said i am scared of intimacy so...), that I want to stay single, that I just want cats... I mean, I tried it all and she keeps asking every single day, it's starting to affect me mentally.
I love my mom so much and I know she is just worried that I will probably regret not dating in 10y or so... I don't know, is anyone in the same boat?
Your parents have no business attempting to rule your life and they should refrain from telling you how to live your life. This should have been made clear a long time ago.
You have to talk to your mother and tell her once and for all that you have no intentions whatsoever to get into a relation and have children just because she wants grandchildren. It is a very unhealthy situation and it is up to you to make it absolutely clear to her.
In a way, I understand your mother because most parents want to have grandchildren but you have to make sure you make it clear that it will not be the case.
You could tell her something in that line
"Mom, I love you dearly but it is my decision not to get into a relation, to get married or to have children. You have to accept my decision and I will not change my mind. Therefore, please don't insist. This topic is closed and I will no longer accept that you try to force me to do something that is against my wish. I hope you understand my position. I love you mom but my decision is final. Thank you for understanding and supporting me in the path I have chosen for my future".