Is it understandable that I wish I was born gay, since ugly gay guys struggle less with getting a romantic relationship&getting laid?

I am an ugly straight guy. I am 30 and never had a girlfriend cause I am ugly and only got laid free one time cause I am ugly. I know ugly gay guys have a way easier time getting a romantic relationship and getting laid than ugly straight guys. I never thought I would say this, but I wish I was born gay. I can't make myself gay because it doesn't work that way. That is why I wish I was born gay.
Is it understandable that I wish I was born gay, since ugly gay guys struggle less with getting a romantic relationship&getting laid?
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