Am I afraid of commitment? Am I afraid of men? What's wrong with me?

[Anonymous]

Every time I sense a guy likes me I push them away or ghost them. I've never been in am actual relationship because every time one of them asks me I turn them down.

[slatyb]

Do you feel unworthy of affection? It sounds like you are rejecting them so they can't reject you. I've been there. Were you raised in a home with a lot of drama?

[Asker]

Yes, extremely toxic.

[slatyb]

I'm so sorry. My upbringing wasn't that traumatic, more neglectful. Can you see a counselor or therapist? I finally did when I was 34 and wish I had when I was your age. It's good that you have asked the question here. Spend as much time with supportive people as you can.

[Guy13]

It sounds like that could be a problem. Have you spoken with a counselor?

[Asker]

Nope

[Guy13]

I am not a professional but it seems like a good idea. High school has free ones. Community colleges have free ones. University has free ones. Why not ask around? It seems like everything to win and nothing to lose... I don't mean to be pushy but just idea :-)